i will not apologize for being too much for you.
i saw that girl in the dress that fell midway from thigh to knee.
you called her a slut and when i looked down at my own hemline i wondered what you truly thought of me.
do you remember the rosy lipstick that you asked me not to wear because i was “pretty without it?”
so did you think i was ugly with it?
for a month you needed a haircut but i never said anything because if you like it long you like it long,
but then you said “all i ask is don’t wear your hair up, i like it more down”
as if your opinion was supposed to matter so much to me.
so i’m not sorry for wearing tight dresses or for not holding my tongue.
i’m not sorry for keeping the lipstick
or for making more money than you
or for losing my temper when you rolled your eyes at my convictions.
i was a river and you were a dam;
you should have known i would crash through you.
i was the noise you wanted to silence and the pistol you wanted to lock
and no, i will never apologize.
if you wanted a girl you could control, you picked the wrong one. (via sheets-and-eyelids)



i don’t understand where this idea of jane being rational came from

like did we watch entirely different movies

jane is a scientist who gets excluded from the scientific community and whose only applicant is a politics major who needed an internship. jane rides out into the middle of freak storms for fucking storm readings and believes before she had hard evidence that there is a fucking ancient civilization on the other end of the universe based on the fact that this dude is hot and looks like thor and why the fuck would there NOT be a wormhole over new mexico

so, fuck no - she is not special because she’s rational. if she was rational she would have thrown thor out on his ass instead of riding with him into a government facility to steal back a hammer. the primary defining descriptor of jane foster is that she is instinctual, in that she realizes the magic of science and doesn’t couch her understanding in numbers or even facts at times buther gut instinct

and if her gut instinct was to punch out the guy who committed genocide and mass enslavement and also mindwashed her mentor and killed the guy who secured her funding

then she’s going to punch that motherfucker out

so no it’s not bad character development, no one’s taking her on an 180. its that you probably have to watch the first movie again.


#also i take issue with this weird narrow definition of ‘rational’ that has to mean making normal rigid safe ‘clever’ decisions all the time #scientists (esp physicists) are some of the most irrational creatures on earth #in the sense that they will always push the boundaries; always take risks; always dream and burn and see further and weirder and wilder real #realities #jane acting on her gut instinct isn’t jane being irrational; it’s her trusting all the sparking neurons that come together in her giant brai #brain and trusting them; trusting herself #she would never ever have gotten this far; would never even be doing the research she’s doing if she didn’t deny pragmatic realities #at the cost of her own reputation and social stature and security - to pursue what she believed; her gut instincts #what she believed about the universe #and one of the most glorious things about her is that she might be a genius and burning with a terrifying drive to find her truth at all cos#costs; but that also makes her kind of bad at self-preservation or thinking ahead in anything except the pursuit of SCIENCE #and how often do we glorify and romanticise that in a male character; that intense drive towards something #to glory; power; truth; some burning inherent mission in their bones; at the cost of normality or safety or even their own humanity or norma #normality #like #???#jane is a fucking masterpiece tbqh #the problem isn’t jane; the problem is that the movie thinks jane isn’t a villain (or at least anti-hero) protagonist (viaokayophelia)